SS running low...suppose to have at least about 4oz in the morning now I only left with a mere 1oz. Arghhh...I guess I won't be happy for the longest time ever now. Really feel like crying out loud...Adore got a very bad scolding from me last night, something drives me up to the wall and I'm actually losing myself over her. What's wrong? I admit that I'm chanting very much lesser now, giving excuses everyday that everything will be fine even without much prayers. I'm wrong, very wrong...Gohonzon please save me, give me the guidance...arghhhh....I'm going crazy.

Anyone knows how to discipline children? I guess I'm losing control and I really hate the sight of me scolding Adore. What's the use of scolding her like a mad woman when she don't know even know head or tail about anything? Where can't I be like Mrs Ikeda discipline children only using words? Or could it be my words are too difficult even for myself to understand? So many questions and yet I didn't even bother to find out the answers....